So I've realized:

That in the past few months I've gained back like 20-30 lbs. It's pretty nasty. I've stopped working out, and have basically given up running and any sort of exercise for smoking cigarettes. I let myself down so much, and I know the size that I could be but I just never get up off of my ass to do anything about it. I got one of my best friend's Amanda to start exercising a lot, pretty much like daily. I used to be such a health nut, and work-outaholic and now I'm just down and out with a "beer gut" to prove it.

I mainly use my tumblr blog to update things with, mainly because most of my friends use tumblr given the exception of one friend. I wanted something more private, that not everyone from my high school can view because I feel like this is more personal/private to me to track my daily food intake/physical exertion. I've been thinking that I've pretty much tested (almost, I'm not going to touch trying bodily harm or death and what not!) how much my body can take in a negative way, now I really want try turning it into a positive and burning the fuck out of my body to see what type of positive results I can get. Like only eating fruits & veggies for a while, not eating so much fucking dairy (I'm lactose intolerant), and writing down a workout regime for myself to live by each and every day for a little while and just see how my attitude/body responds. I honestly don't plan on giving up smoking cigarettes because I do enjoy having them at hand and in mah bodeh! (So sorry lungs.) But I'm definitely going to cut down so that I can get faster and further (switch those around) with my running and build my stamina back up.

So: for tomorrow!

Wake up at 7am
Take puggle Bella for a walk (down to the arboretum, possibly try for Viktor Allens?)
Take her to Happy Dogz
Go home to Manitou house and eat breakfast (two slices Ezekiel bread, oatmeal, fruit, glass o' water.)
Clean up/re-decorate room
-Accomplish all of thise by 9:15am-
 Hang out with the kids
Make vegan homemade croutons
Do half hour pilates
Stretch
Watch a movie

Eat lunch (Salad w/ greens, homemade croutons, and wheat bread)
Do Yoga

HANG OUT TIME WITH AMANDA. HOPE TO GOD HER MAMA LET'S HER STILL.


Dinner (VEGGIES VEGGIES VEGGIES. Steamed veggies with rice.

Go for a run.

In bed by 10:45pm.